oh beautiful baby Bash,
I am so glad that the last 3 months have moved so slowly; I feel like I’ve had time to enjoy your sweet newborn phase. I have no idea why it’s gone slowly since we’ve been so busy, but it feels like you’ve been here for at least 6 months; I can’t believe it’s only half that long. I was so scared that you would grow up in the blink of an eye and I would feel like I had missed it, so I am extremely grateful for the unexpected slowing of time. I’m sure I will look back one day and remark on how fast it went, but at this moment in time, it feels as though I’ve been given enough time to soak up this stage.
I don’t really have any babies to compare you to, but I think you’re on the smaller end – you’re still wearing some newborn clothes, but mostly you’re in 0-3month size, and starting to wear some 3-6month sized things, but they’re really baggy. Archer was always at least one size above his actual age, so the fact that your age and size align is taking some getting used to.
It’s not for lack of eating though. You’re still entirely breastfed, and you can down both sides in like 10 minutes flat.The cracked nipple issue appears to have sorted itself out – thank god. You do sometimes try to chew your fingers while feeding, which is pretty cute, but definitely impossible. Daddy keeps letting you sample his food; so far I think you’ve only tasted watermelon, but who knows what Daddy feeds you when I’m not around.
The last few weeks you’ve kind of “woken up” a bit; by that I mean that you’re more aware and a bit less easy going. You’re still pretty laid back, but you’ve needed to be held, by me, pretty much all day. I get you to sleep in my arms, then put you down, and you’re awake within 15 minutes without fail. I know it’s just a stage, and I don’t mind, it’s just a bit hard to get anything else done.
To be fair though, you do sleep at night usually. Most nights I feed you around 10 or 11, then you either sleep right through until 6 or you wake once for a quick feed around 3. I usually feed you and get you back in your bed without even fully waking up, so most mornings I actually have no idea if we were up in the night or not haha.
Your new awareness has resulted in cute new skills though. You’ve found your hands. You work REALLY hard to get your fingers into your mouth – SO much concentration – and then you maul them until they fall out and you panic because you can’t find them again. You like tummy time for short times. You love the bath but you don’t get one every day because I’m lazy haha; I’ve started laying you in an inch of water like I did with Archer, and you squeal and kick your limbs around – very cute. You love being talked to, and your whole little face lights up; we’re still waiting to get a laugh from you, but you smile frequently and easily. You can talk/squeak, but you don’t very often.
Your very favourite ‘thing’ though, is your brother. When Archer is around, you just stare at him. Archer likes to smile at you so that you will smile back, and I always feel like I might explode when you two are smiling at each other. Archer always asks me to make you talk, and when you do (of your own free will) he get’s so excited; “ooooh! Bashie talk to me!”. He’s become more gentle, or maybe you’re just bigger and more resilient, but he definitely loves you as much as you love him; he hugged you last night and said “I love you Bashie, you’re my bestest boy”.
I don’t know who you will become Bash – it’s one of the great joys of parenting, watching your ‘self’ emerge. I wonder what you will be obsessed with as a toddler, and even beyond that who you will love, what you will want to do, what you will stand up for. All of that is in there just waiting to come out and show us who you are, and I’m so looking forward to watching it unfold. For now, you’re a cuddly, sweet smelling, smiley, brother-admirer, who likes to chew on his fingers.
We love you, Sebastian.